Big Day

今天是28號了...前幾天,也就是25號的那天是一年一度的聖誕節, 也是我的BIG DAY. 那天是我喜歡了九年的偶像..S.H.E里的Hebe田馥甄來大馬辦簽唱會宣傳他的個人首張專輯....幸運的是..我不但'終於'能參與她的簽唱會,見到她..我還很幸運的參與了她的粉絲見面會..近距離及提早的見到她..說到這粉絲聚會我真的是可以說是一個偶然的幸運...本來我打算去那粉絲聚會的Hotel碰一碰運氣,看看是否可以見到他而已的..怎知道當見面會快要開始的時候,竟然有位工作人員跑來問: '' 你們沒有票是嗎?" 我: "嗯,對,沒有!" 工作人員說 : "嗯..我可以讓你們進去,可是你們只能站後面看,不行告訴別人哦!"..哇..我們還要說甚麼..直接跳起來跟他進去見面會房間了囉...對我來說,這真的是很幸運..支持了九年,第一次見她竟是如此的機會見面..真的很幸運..見面會大概是佔了40分鐘多而已就結束了..之後我也只噴簽唱會現場..到那的時候..已經是大排長龍了..幸好有位朋友帶路'插隊''..才有好位子給我看簽唱會的..哈..一整天下來..真的好累哦..第一次這樣子..也許有人會說我瘋狂追星..可是我覺得我的舉止必沒有到瘋狂..只是去支持一個喜歡的偶像..憑著自己個人出的專輯,Hebe田馥甄展現了她個人獨特的魅力及聲音..雖然這一次只見到了S.H.E里的H而已..S還在康復當中,可是我相信我很快的再能見到完整的S.H.E在台上表演..期待著Hebe在大馬的個人音樂會...聽她唱現場真的是很陶醉...期待...

不是這樣子的!!

不是這樣子的,怎麼會演變成這個樣子呢?我不要,也不想! 我從來沒有想過我選擇的這條路是要帶給你們這樣的一個負擔...我只是想繼續完成它,好讓你們以後的日子能好一些. 可是..現在卻是.....我承認我曾經埋怨過,為甚麼要我一個人想我學費的事,生活費,交通費等等..為甚麼你們卻沒來和我一起分擔這些煩惱..甚麼事情總是我一個人想,擔憂呢...今天的我還是老樣子,上班到一半就會想有關學費的事..想著想著..決定把機車賣掉,把賣機車的錢拿來當生活費用,便和你們說了我的決定..可是你卻說你和爸商量了,等我開學后就會盡量支付我的住宿費及交通費,也許在別人眼里哪不是甚麼錢...可是我知道的..爸今年是甚麼年齡,還得工作...還得養活家..著已經夠辛苦了..我不想增加你們的負擔..长這麼大的我還沒能給你們過好的生活我已感到很慚愧了,只想快點完成我的學業,出來工作賺錢養你們..可是在完成學業的途中,我只需要你們給我的支持和鼓勵...我不想給你們負擔,也不想要你們供我讀書...我會想辦法完成的...可是你卻說你有要把爸爸的退休金拿給我讀書....我...我...我何得何能拿你們的養老金來讀書啊...我不會要你們的錢的...可是你終於說出我等了好久的一句話..''沒關係,家裡就只有你可以讀大學,媽媽的以你為榮'...這句話我總于聽到了,可是卻是讓我更加不要拿你們的一份錢來完成它...你說..那天去阿姨家時,她把我在吉隆坡辛苦挨餓剩錢的事情告訴了你,可是你們卻在家好像不怎麼理會式的..你說聽了很心痛...也許某個時候我一個人躲在家裡吃泡麵時真的會覺得自己很可憐..可是我已習慣了,因為這就是成長的必經路...聽著你們要為我的學費,生活費怎樣怎樣的..我的心里缺有一句花湧上心頭好想好想對你們說,爸媽..對不起..我不要你們的錢..只要你們的一句話,我就能應付所有的財務狀況,我能應付沒錢吃飯的日子...我用不下你們的養老金...跟你說著說著...我發現..你的糖尿病的病情又嚴重了,醫生竟然說要每天打針來控制..我更慚愧了...在我每天埋怨的當時..你卻一個人靜靜的面對你的病情,誰也不說...我才發現..長期在外地的我,忽略了你的健康,忽略了你一個人總是胡思亂想的心...讓你的想法越來越negative..我慚愧的..很想打我自己..好好的提醒自己的的幸福....我會好好的安排我的費用...好讓你們不用擔心...對不起....我真的對不起你們...我會好好唸書,回報你們對我的期望...對不起...

爆米花

我的臉上就像爆米花一樣的'爆'出了好多的痘痘...我想最近的我真的壓力很大...工作,學業,家庭,未來,生活費...樣樣都把我重重的壓著...壓得我真的喘不過氣來了...說真的最近我真的是有呼吸困難的現象..醫生說..是因為我過於壓力而導致...想明天好好的放鬆一下..可是今天又聽到一件令我煩惱的事..可是今天的我卻出奇的冷靜...我沒有要哭的衝動...也許....我...真的沒有力氣再為了你們的事而流淚了...我真的很累了.....累得連哭泣的力氣也都沒有了...其實..每天強顏歡笑的我真的很不開心...每天扛著家裡給我的期望,對自己的承諾,自己希望能給到家人的承諾,還有時不時總是要我當中間人的無聊吵鬧....都讓我覺得'累了'...如果在這樣的奮鬥時期一直有人在身邊支持著我..也許我不會那麼快的累吧...因為至少有個人聽聽我的故事,讓我發洩發洩........可是.......一直以來.........都沒有.........我只能把我的壓力情緒自己一個人吞下...快要爆發時就只會跳進泳池里冷靜..........可是..........冷靜后........我的肩膀還是依然的繁重...從來沒有減輕過.....說真的.......天啊......當你要考驗我的人生時,好歹也給我一個小小的窗口,好讓我呼吸順暢點啊......因為最近的我...平平一直出現呼吸困難的狀況.....我真的不知道.......我還能撐多久..........我快不行了......

缺點

我的缺點是...我不知道要怎樣虛假的去奉聖一個我不認為他很厲害很棒的人...這就是我吃虧的地方......因為我沒有其他人那麼的虛假,做作,有心機....所以在這樣的現實生活里我輸了一半...可是..我不相信'虛假的人'的人生會過得開心...因為..他們都是在帶着面具做人...這樣的人生..不會很累嗎.??況且我認為...讓我看見這美麗的世界是我父母...所以我只會奉聖我的父母..沒有必要為了一些事而去奉聖你或他的...討好你或他...你..以為你自己是誰啊?? 哦..我知道答案了..讓我告訴你答案吧...''你只不過是我人生里的其中一位過路客而已...'' 還有...不要這樣的虛假了...我替你感到悲哀,這樣的活着做人...已經不再是為自己,為父母而活了...而是為了身邊那些無聊路過者而活...這樣的人生...我寧可不要...也許..有人會說我本..不醒目..可是..我不想對不起辛辛苦苦把我養大的父母...看見他的女兒就像一只小狗一樣的在人家面前搖擺...我不是這樣的人....我不是別人..我是我自己...

你不懂我!!

不要一副很懂我的樣子,你不懂我...沒有人真正的懂我,只有我懂我自己....

況且,我和你有很熟嗎? 還有...在還沒有很懂我之前請不要讓其他人覺得...

你很懂我...

我超討厭這樣的人...

短髮

從昨天就開始有一中很想去剪頭髮的感覺...今天去金河剛好看見一家理髮店,就二話不說的走進去剪了頭髮...進去後髮型師問我要剪怎樣的一個髮型...我頓了一下..看著他...嗯~~沒有idea捏...因為腦子理想的就是'想剪髮'而已..沒有特別要怎樣的一個髮型捏..討論了很久..終於開刀剪髮了...剪了之後...看一看..感覺沒那麼喜歡這個髮型捏...唉..早知道就只修剪就好....可是後來在看一看...ㄟ~~其實..也還不賴嘛...唉..沒關係啦...反正我的頭髮就是那麼快的長嘛...剪短了..還是可以在留長的...好吧...就這樣..喜歡這個髮型..就會感到開心點...哈...況且..facebook上的留言顯示..這髮型還滿適合我的嘛...哈哈....>

書展+薇薇生日+哈拉

昨天在還沒睡飽的狀況起床上班去,才上了兩個小時就去KLCC書展於這幾位三八一族見面. 在書展看見好多書都好想買哦..!!可是每個都是RM70++的...怎麼賣得下手啊..!!還是回家考慮先吧..$_$...之後就幫薇薇慶生,有看見她那驚訝的樣子.!! 哈~~好笑...可是我想我們也被人笑吧...又是一間店怕了我們的吵鬧聲..我想下吃真的要叫Soon Len Teoh這位小妹靜一點了...慶生后,就是哈拉...一整天下來,真的有點累囉......唉~~每次和這班人出去就是會累...應該都是口水戰的禍吧..哈哈...下次真的不要再這麼用力的開戰了...

老友聚會!!

已經好久好久沒有update我的這個部落格了哦...開始工作後,真的沒有甚麼多餘的時間每天update部落格. 在八月的最後一天,趕緊來po一些最近發生的是事...好得也寫下一些也許會讓人遺忘的一些回憶...哈...嗯...前幾天和老朋友聚會,聊起很多中學時期的事情哦..有開心的..也有不愉快的...種種事情都顯得我們當年真的很幼稚..哈!! 現在的大家都長大了,也許我們不能說我們的思想'很'成熟...可是至少不會像以前那樣糊裡糊塗的就相信他人的話語,誤會了身邊的好友,就這樣的是去了一個朋友...其實這樣的舉動是多麼的不值得啊...也許有一些人會說我很沒種,為甚麼會主動和一位曾因為誤會而翻臉的朋友聯繫呢?理由很簡單,就是..當你長大後,回頭看一看你的過去...才會覺得..我們曾一起渡過好多開心的回憶...可是卻因為那微不足道的無聊事而翻臉..值得嗎? 這樣的一個問題會不斷的重複的再你的腦子力打轉...到最後的答案竟然會是..'不值得'...我也很慶幸,我主動聯絡回他..這樣才有了前幾天那開心的聚會...才會有未來更多的聚會....俗話說得好..多一位朋友好過多一位敵人...這是真的..多一位朋友會比多一位敵人來得開心...希望..我們大家的友誼能常常久久的....

為甚麼? Why? Kenapa?

為甚麼?為甚麼最近我家發生這麼多事情呢? 發生了很多讓人傷心難過的事情...前一正子表姊家里發生不愉快的事情,離婚了~昨天還在睡夢中的我,受到一封短訊,說我姨婆往生了~感傷~~今天正要去上班的我接到了媽媽的電話說,我姑丈也往生了...我整個人嚇得一直問又發生了甚麼事?我媽說,姑丈在昨天凌晨跳樓自殺了~我整個人頓時傻掉了~為甚麼?為甚麼?為甚麼會發生這樣的事情啊?為甚麼會想不開呢?有甚麼事是不能解決的呢?為甚麼就是要做這樣的選擇,這樣的決定呢? 我不懂,也不明白~希望所有壞事都告一段落,我真的不想在聽到人和的壞消息了~God~~pls...我求你,不要再有不幸的事情發生了好嗎?拜託~~~

Child's Eye : Rainie Yang

waitting for "child's eye" which act by Rainie Yang...but still a long time for it...14th Oct..haiz...wait, wait, wait....

SORRY

今天，最后一个学期的成绩出炉了！很糟糕~真的很糟~从来没有得到这么糟糕的一次。是我的要求太高吗？还是我接受不了失败的事实？也许当初我对自己太过于自信了吧！自以为这一次还是会和之前一样，一定能在得到3.50以上~再上台上拿奖的~可是~梦想一切都毁灭了~刚开始给自己的理由是final project和club的事让我忙得没有时间读书~可是想一想，其实这个本就是自欺欺人~明明自己是可以一早就可以开始做准备的，可是我却选择待在电脑前面上网聊天，看戏~没有认真的念书~我现在最对不起的是我爸妈~那天母亲节时，还答应妈妈说“I'm not able to buy any thing that you want now, but I promise I will try my best to study hard to get a flying colour result to you, mum”。 之后也和爸爸说了同样的一句话。可是现在看到了成绩，真地对他们很愧疚~答应了，却没有做到~ 看到了成绩，马上打电话给他们说声“对不起”。他们不但没怪罪我，还安慰我，担心我为了成绩的事乱想。这更让我觉得难过~ 我现在担心的是，近大学的几率有多高？CGPA跌了，近政府大学的几率也小了~很担心~真的很担心~表姐叫我考虑私人大学，那里的出路会比较好。很自然的，和爸妈商量，可是他们却说“你自己决定吧”。为什么我到现在还看不清楚我未来的路呢？为什么我总是活在担心的日子呢？为什么总是要我自己做决定呢？为什么我不能像其他人那样，无忧无虑的享受学生生活呢？

也许这就是我的命运吧~

“丞心”聚会

0605早上，抱着忐忑的心情到了Sunway Pyramid, 第一次与网友们见面，其实很怕尴尬，很怕没话题聊。可是~一切都不是我想象的那样，因为大家都很三八~而且我们也不知道是去red box唱k还是去red box聊天的~正间房好像巴杀一样的吵…尤其是那位“未成年的老人家”，没有人能敌得过他的声音。这一次的聚会很愉快，平常在网络上哈拉聊天，想不到私下也能聊得这么开~希望下次去popeye的时候不会被赶走就好~哈哈~~期待下一次的聚会~ ^^

Finally, I grad my Diploma in Marketing course!!

Last Tuesday,25 May 2010, I done my last paper for my Diploma in Marketing. Actually, I'm not really sactisfies with the answer that I did in all paper, not really confident with all paper. Maybe I had not enough time to prepare for my exam. But however, it's already past. What should I do now just is simply praying for the result. Hah..XD...Well~ Now, I'm feel so Happy..cause finally I'm done, I'm finish, I'm Graduate.....I finish my course in Polytechnic..which college that I been stay along three year. Three year, quiet long...a lot of memories in Polytechnic. A lot of memories with Kelantan freinds. Happiness, Sadness and had saw many kind of people. Childish, Selfish, Narcissism and more. Now, already grad...unlimited holiday..haha...so I give myself one month to rest. Then just go to KL find a part time job for half year then continue to my Bachelor Degree....hope can get in to uni soon......^^

Final Project Presentation !!

Finally I done this final project presentation yesterday. Actually I don't know how describe my feelling now. I feel stupid cause I had spend a lot of time and money one this presentation, but it's also a nice experience for me actually. Ya~I really had spend a lot of time, everyday just worry about this project...have to go many place find supplier who help us to produce our's idea to physical..a damn expensive packaging...this three boxes and a few patch of our product need RM140...but we are most lucky if compare with the other group which needs RM200 and above. All this is time and money....and why we do it so...al because of that an hour presentation...?? Ya~~所謂"台上一分鐘台下十年功"啊~ what we did a long last few month is because of this an hour presentation...but in anyway...that's also an experience for us in making a new product...from here I really had learned a lot of thing...how to get an idea to physical, how to make sure that consumer like it, how to make a good price, how to promote, what kind of product is suitable to offered to market and a lot...........now...I 'm so happy that I really had done this project...but I'm still can't relax, because there are a lot of thing have to done it on next week...2 or 3 assignment, 3 quiz, 2 test and so on.....beside there are many club activities on next week too...have to settle it also...and the most important is final exam is coming around..but I had not yet start study...What a busy week for me...I really scare I have no time to prepare my final exam...this is my last semester..if I still can get result above 3.5 ...I will can get another award for this...I hope that I can do it....

Swollen~~

Uhhhh~~~Pain~~~not because of the sub bone which cracked, it's because of the peeling feet. Last Thursday, my family is came to K.B...Actually they came K.B is not because I'm in an accident, they came K.B is not specially for me. T_T....They plan to come K.B since last few weeks....+_+"....they come and take a look my injuries is by coincidence only...haiz~~ Then~~My family come K.B, for sure I have to accompany them to go around in K.B....That's why my feet is become more serious...Cause I walk too much on that 1day 1 night in K.B....Actually I should rest more, but I no...after that they are going back K.T...but my feet is swollen alike pig feet. On Friday night I even can't walk to kicthen and also toilet, that's damn pain. It's already 2 day, my feet which swollen is not yet recovery. Today I already skip class, I think I'm can't go to the class tomorrow. The exam is coming around, I really don't want to skip any class now. "FEET"...pls~pls~recover more faster....Swollen~pls~pls~dissapear...I want go to class.....

I found....

After accident was happend, I found that actually I'm a weak girl. Before this I thought I'm a independent girl who never let her parent worry about her. I thought I can stay alone and independent outstation without family. Even family is not beside me, I can a person living, cause I'm a tough girl. But once the accident was happend, I just felt that actually I need my family beside me. Since they call me by phone to ask about the accident, I was non-stop crying. I don't know why? I really can't control myself, I can't even control my eyedrop. Maybe I'm not tough as I think. I just a little girl who need family love, accompany and also concern. Nothing diffrence with other girls. Since accident happened, I found two things. That's I'm weak, another one is actually there are so many friend who really worry and care about me. I knew it through my facebook comment and also the people who came my house to visit me. The day after accident, I was non-stop open the door of my room to let people come-in, it's quiet tired, because my feet is damn pain, but it's so sweet to me too. I can see that, I've many friend here who really concern about my injuries. Friends~~Thanks for all wishing comment and also people who came my house, thankz for coming. I can feel you guy concern...Thankz~~~

Suprise 21st Belated Birthday Present ~ Accident !!

Today I had just received a super big suprise 21st belated birthday present, cause I'm in an accident this evening. Actually on that time, I going to college for club meeting, cause there are alot or activities have to settle. But who know what going to happen next minute?? Actually I'm in the college already and park my motorbike...Cause I'm so good, I let my malay friend to come down from my motor..so I didnt shut down the motorbike engine then let her come down directly. Then after that I direct go and lock my motorbike...cause the tire is not on the right pose, so I try to move the motorbike more front,so that I can lock it. But I holded a wrong place to move it. I hold the accelerator, so the motorbike direct move~~~~and across my feet. It's let my right feet is get hurt and left feet sub bone is cracked...in starting..I though I just want to go phamarcy to buy some "Dettol" and medicine to paint. But I saw a junior, after they saw my wound, they called my to clinic. Then I just go to clinic. But who know that the doctor called me to go K.B General Hospital to x-ray, cause he afraid my bone is cracked. So I force to go K.B, I though my left feet is just bruising and it's not too serious. But the result of the x-ray show that my sub bone is cracked and need to wrap my feet along 3 week. Gosh...So how about my final project? There are a lot of thing have not done yet. My final project is going to present one week more, the club activities is damn many is going to be held next few week...many thing not yet settle. "MC" 2 week? haha..I don't think I'll be rest along 2 week...I think I'm going class this Sunday. What a LUCKY Day??? WHAT A SUPRISE 21st BIRTHDAY PRESENT??

Left feet ~ Sub Foot Bone Cracked

Right Feet ~ Peeling ~ Say "Hi! "to my flesh ~

Happy Birthday to Me~~

Today, 11st April 2010 is my 21st years birthday. Yesterday night I'm so scared. Why? Strange right ? Haha~~Actually I scared for my classmate and junior, cause when ever people birthday, they will on time at 12a.m...call birthday boy/girl go out and throw the egg to birthday boy/girl body. Hey~~Hey~~It's nasty okay. So that I'm so scared the same thing is happen on me too. So I'm lie, haha...I said I'll going to town to buy something and maybe will so late just back rent house here, actually I'm in my rent house and never want to get out. But finally they also knew that, I'm here. I pretend I'm sleep, but still can't holdout their invite to a cafe. They said just hang out for a drink, but on that time I really so scared that the other of them are waiting outside of my house, ready to attack me, but luckily no. hahah~~ Another suprise is about my housemate, cause yesterday night I'm too scared about my junior, so i decided to sleep early. About 10p.m something I'm try to on bed. But suddenly the door of my room is knock by some one. So I force to wake up and open the door. It was so shock, cause my housemate and his boyfriend were took a piece of small choc cake with candle and singging birthday song infront of me. It's quiet early, but I'm really get suprise on it. Actually for this year, I wish that I can celebrate with my lovely family and all my secondary school friend, who can't celebrated for me last few year. Cause everyone of us is not in the same place. My family~just only a called wishes get, cause I'm in outstation for my study, so that they can't accompany and celebrate my 21st years birthday. It's hear sound so sad about it. I wish that I have an amazing 21st years birthday with my lovely and all friends. But I think this wishes can't be the true...@_@

Gosh ~I'm really so proud of you sis~~

Just know this newz...Gosh~~I'm really so proud of you sis...Get 16th in the 6th Asian - Pacific Direct - Selling Forum. It's cool, you as one of my idol is right. Family of Heng's is proud of you, especially your parents. ^^...To me, you're very great. Still wanna say one more time~~ "I"M REALLY PROUD OF YOU SIS QI".....琦姐,你真的很棒~ 我會向你學習的~~~ 加油~~~

Thai Festival ~ Songkran

Today is quiet tired, because I hang out whole day. Actually yesterday is time for me to rest more, but I force to woke up early in the morning. Cause had promise with classmate to go town bought something for our final project. It's took a few hour to buy it, then after bought entire thing, I have to sent my classmate back to college and took some clothes then just go to "Tumpat"( a place in Kelantan which got many temple - such as sleeping Buddha, seated Buddha and stand Buddha) to join Thai people festival - "Songkran" (in chinese we call it "泼水节"). It's fun but it was a little bit disappoited, cause we are late. Because of I force to sent my classmate back to our college hostel, it's waste a few hour on there. Since we reached the temple, the splash water game is almost finish. However, we still can played for almost one hour I guess. It's quiet fun, since I stay in Kelantan almost 3 year..but this is my 1st time to join "Songkran"..Haha..Ashamed...Last chance for me to join this kind of Thai people festival in Kelantan...1st time and also last time..+_+"..but enjoy it.....

Earthquake in Sumatra~~

蘇門達臘7.5級地震‧檳吉玻撤除海嘯警報
大馬
即時新聞 2010-04-07 08:56

（大馬）印尼北蘇門達臘發生7.5級地震。國家氣象局目前已撤除針對檳吉玻所發出的海嘯警報。北海一些公寓居民感受到餘震，於清晨逃到平地區。
星洲網站也於清早六點多收到女讀者發來簡訊，指其丈夫目前身在北海，公寓居民皆可感覺震動，紛紛逃出來，在公寓外的平地處觀察情況。
另外 ,印尼雅加達大馬學生會表示，所有在亞齊深造的大馬學生都安全，沒有人在地震中死傷。星洲互動‧2010.04.07

Again?? Haiz~~We really can't forecast what going to happen next minute, next second. What should we do now is cherish our life in every minute we're off.

男人的可信度？

前几天和一位女学妹聊天，惊然的听到了一个消息~就是跟我同一学期进校的朋友。在进校后不久，他们就是一对情侣了~从当初第一学期到现在，我们都快毕业了~他们在一起大概也快3年了吧~我一直都以为那位男生对那女生好好~这几年下来，有多少新的情侣党，有多少的分离~可是他们的交往还蛮稳定的说~可是，前几天我却从学妹哪里知道“其实这个男生很花心，除了我朋友，外面还交了几个眉妹呢~一脚踏几船的说~我吓倒了~一直以为他是个好好先生的~背后却做出这样的事~男人的可信度有多高？花心的男人很可怕~看不清楚的爱情更可怕~不知情的女人更是可怜~~

The Thing Which Accompany Me in KB~~

~Finally get it~

~Free Gift for Album~nice to use~

~ifeel magazine~

There are already two day I been a house woman. Today I force to go out to buy something. Yes~this is the thing that I bought just now. 1st buy..Of course is my lovely S.H.E 12nd album . For this time, I'm not really like the packaging of the album. You know what, the CD of the album is inside another small pack, you can see it by the photo I posted. There are no any small pocket for the CD, the big one is jus only for lyrics...Gosh..so means if I'm lost the small pack, I can't put my CD in. (Well~I guess I'm not going to lost it.) But isn't it this packaging is quiet strange.?? The 2nd photo is the file which a free gift for the album. Nice to use. Haha~~cos my file which I use everyday to class is broke. It's time to change a new one, this is the best gift on time. Finally, the most important thing force me go KB is this magazine. ifeel~~haha~~I like this magazine, because there are a lot of thing and information inside there. I'd learned many thing from there. Like it~For this month, Mummy Rainie Yang is the cover . Cute + Mature~~hehe~~~like her too~~but can't go to her concert...haiz..sad~my life not allow me to attend any concert of my idol~~What can I do?? Just be patience~~~~

Part Time Again~~

Last Friday and Saturday there was a JomHeboh in Kelantan here. For sure, I'm called to work for this Jomheboh. This time is being a promoter for panaflex again. Cause the weather in Kelantan is damn HOT, my skin was sunburned, now damn dark than before. The thing that I'd learned from this part time is the different work style between Kelantan people and Kuala Lumpur people. To be honest, I really can't hold the Kelantan people working style. They are too preoccupied and the part time promoter for them is really just came for money but not for work. If I'm the client, I guess I'll direct scold them and call them going back and sleep. Cause they just stay over there without promoting the product. What for I need they to be a model there. Maybe is because of Ave is a good supervisor and serious on job, so the promoter who under KL agency is quiet hard promoting. Well~~It's heard sound like I'm compliment about myself, but it's true. We are more hardworking to promoting the product compare with Kelantan promoter. Maybe is because I'm a MArketing student, so I know how important is the sales for a marketer. Besides, isn't it we should take serious on our job?? Ya~~We should serious...This also is the reason why I'm in dark now. Haha~~because too resposibility on my part time job, no matter how hot is the weather,I'm still staying under the sun to promote. Ave said I'm crazy promoter. haha~~I think this is my shortcoming, once work...will try my best to do it and responsibility all the time. Should I feel happy on my shortcoming??? hahaha~~~However~It's another nice working experience to me again~~

Considering~~

Now considering either want to apply Taiwan Scholarship or not. Consider because feel that I have no that such qualification to apply. Even apply also not really can get it. "IF" get it..Can I make sure myself, every semester get the flying colour result so that the stipend will non-stop giving by them? I'd read the rules of the scholarship, if I drop or failure..It's maybe will stop giving me stipend for one or two month, or maybe will cancell the scholarship. I really can't 100% say "I can do it!"...Even 50% also no confident..Now considering either want apply for it or not? Well~I know the percentage to get the scholarship is low..haha..but atleast a hope to get free in studies..

Your Word, Deny Me !!

Your one word, deny me..let me become a joke for those hard work that I made along these years. That's funny, I try hard everyday, just because I hope that I able to give you a good life. But nowaday you deny the thing that I did. I recognition that I'm not a people who so smart in studies, but I try to study more better n better. I study in might night, entire thing that I did is hope to get the university and get a good education level, so that can get good life to you. But you're not supporting me always, sometime when I give you some suggestion for those thing, you will said me "don't ever thought you're in high enducated so every one gonna listen to you." hey~pls..tht's just a suggestion, don't take too serious on it, okay? beside, I never force you to listen to me or follow me. Just because you don't like to accept other people opinion, isn't it? Well~~there are a lot of people don't like to hear other people suggestion or an idea, so maybe I can try to considerate you. But you no need to mation that I showing of my education? Why did I do it so? Everyday I'm not only thinking about the studies, beside I 'm still trying to get more money for my daily exspenses. I never try to get one cent from you. Why you still said me like that? Your word really let me become a joke. Now~I'm felt I'm a stupid girl who really thought there are some body will supporting me, no matter how hard life. But now..I'm just done a joke for last few year. There are no body support and agree with me. This make me feel, is time to abandoned.

RESENT

uhhh~resent~~Today I hope to sell a phone in ebay, but the process need a credit card number and ID. So I try to borrow my sis credit card to fill in. I also got asked her before used. After that she went out for doing something and then the banker was called her and asked her either she got use the credit card for some internet shopping? She told the banker "NO"...then the banker said will try to block her credit card for this moment and will send her a new credit card with a new card number as soon as possible too. Means...now I can't use her credit card to sell phone in ebay because can't complete the process. I asked why you said "NO" to the banker, isn't it I already told you that I will use your credit card number for some payment in ebay?? Then my sis said : hehe..I forget dy...Gosh...now..I can't sell the phone, and don't know still got what website can sell thing. Resent arrr~~~~

EARTHQUAKE AGAIN

Chile Earthquake Knocks Earth From Axis Say Scientists
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Friend~~Pls cherish your life, because I think 2012 doomsday is coming soon.

LONG TIME NO SEE

Yesterday night had met with a friend who I didn't meet almost 4 years. It's quiet nervous before meet, but luckily the chat environment is better than I think. Maybe because I'm the good talker, non-stop talking. haha..Well, she is still the same pattern, no different but maybe become more mature. Whether wearing or view, she more mature than before. So happy to see she was a different on this. Yesterday we were talked about the thing that was happend in high school. There are a lot of misunderstading between us. It's funny, all this because of a girl's sow dissension. See~ there are so many people like to sow dissension others. Wondering why they do it so? Anyway, now I've open minded to entire thing was happend. Because you can't ever control the other peolple's idea, saying and also comment, isn't it? As long as you know what are you doing now, that's more enough. We should forget all the childish thing that we made in high school and try to survive with happiness. Beside, I'm so happy to met her yesterday. SO~~ Friend~~ no matter what they said, I still believe our everlasting friendship. Hope to hang out with you again. Good Luck!!

Hot Day vs Rainy Day

Finally..this morning was rainning. When I saw the dark weather, I was so happy, because finally it's going to rainning. Almost 2 week, there are no rain in Kelantan. The weather damn hot, but the weather is kidding with us, it's just rain about 20 minute and then suddenly become a hot day. As I know, now Taiwan and China is damn cool. Many of my netizens from China and Taiwan said that they have to wear many clothes and the temperature of China is below 0'....Gosh...Are u kidding? We are hot until heat stroke, the people in China and Taiwan cold until change to frozen ice. What a terror weather.?? +_+" GUYS~~~ I think we have to ready for 2012!!!

SURPRISE

Today is my surprising day, 1st~ I get a msg from a friends who I really know from worked. She asked me for a job which RM130 per day at K.B. Well~ Because I'm facing with money problem, this msg let me feel so excited because an extra money are waiting for me. Ave, I'm so glad to do this job. ^^ See~ Once you take serious on your job (no matter is work for long term or part time), they will call you back for nother new job. So~Friend~~~take serious while you working with people, Okay? Another surprise is about my quiz, well~the marks not really so high but it's so surprise for me. Actually I have no confident with this quiz, because I thought I did so many wrong and also not really confident with the answer that I did. I thought it will jus only get 3 or 2..and maybe 1 marks only. But the result that I get is 7/10. Well~it's still higher than my friends who so confident. 7marks actually is not the best score, but if you have no confident with the quiz, it may so surprise for you. Started from this semester, all the test and quiz result is quiet good, all nearest full marks. Hope I can keep this good result along this semester. Get a flying colour result in last semester. Good Luck !!

ANOTHER LONELY DAY

Today, wake up on 11a.m. After take shower, cook some dishes for lunch. Then just stay inside the room one people, online and watch Taiwan TV show. Now, it's already 7:30p.m...No one in my house, just one people wake up, having lunch and also dinner. Because of hope to save up money, my lunch is carrot add egg and eat with my maggi mee. Dinner? Having bread with peanut jam. What a pity life for me? Everyday count the money which I spend, staying at room lonely. Maybe I already feel nothing with this all happend.

DO YOU FEEL LONELY

If you're a person's life, do you feel lonely? Sometimes, this question is in my mind. I can't answer this question, because I do not have a definite answer for it. NowI'm staying outstation for my studies, and always a person go to class, a person go to eat, a person go to supermarket and a person watched movie in my room. This may heard like so pity, all thing do it by myself. But I didn't felt lonely while doing those thing. However, sometime I still will felt lonely, felt lonely when I hope to look someone for personal talk, cry or complaint. In this world, is really so hard to find a person who really understand you. When I was thinking about this, I will felt lonely and want to cried. I has been live in this world almost 21year, but I still have no a bossom friends who really know and understand me. Sometime I force to face with a big trouble and have no idea to settle it, there are no one listen to me. Now I'm thinking about this question? Is it my personal problem? Is it because I don't want to tell other people about my trouble? Or maybe I should try to open up myself and try to comnmunicate and tell other people about my trouble? But who should I trust? Wondering why, I afraid to tell other people about the trouble that I force to face, maybe because I feel embarrassed about it. uuhhh~~ I don't know what should I do now, keep feel lonely and keep face the problem and trouble by myself?? Tired~~

Such a serious matter! !

I'm FAT!!

Gosh~

Have to start my diet program!!

Chinese New Year 2010

Well~Today is the 6th day of Chinese New Year, this photo is quiet late uploaded. But anyway Happy Chinese New Year 2010 !!

Terengganu China Town

There is a Chinese New Year Competition in Terengganu China Town!! Quiet good, mood feel more better than last few year. Because there are a lot of people went there to take a look the decoration of every shop in China Town. So do I ! haha~ Had met with so many friend who lost contact. Feel Good!! ^_^

N0 FEELING

The annual Chinese New Year, everyone should wake up early in the morning. Wake up for change a new shirt,dress, skirt or....and helping mother to cook some dishes to celebrate Chinese New Year. But wondering why, almost 9a.m. my whole family still sleeping. Haha~ All of them wake up so late, maybe that's because we are not in our own house, so really feel nothing can do. And yesterday night countdown Chinese New Year at the apartment that we rent. Gosh~~~ BoreDDDD......just watching TV show. That's is my Chinese New Year's Eve. Just one words can describe my New Year's Eve...That's BORED...............

REACHED

Just reach Kuantan here, grandpa house. Well~ It's really felt so bored here...Gosh...have to celebrate Chinese New Year at a boring place, which I have no friend here. Just have relatives which I not really so close and have no too much topic to chat with them. Uhhh~~ What a boring Chinese New Year..I hope to go back K.Trg now..Atleast got my old school friend can meet and more closer relatives....can celebrate with crazier....haha.....but now....hmmm~~~~BorinGGGGGGGGG~~~~~~

Suddenly Felt

Recently found that the people around me are all in love. Whether is friends, junior or others, all in love. I wondering why some of them can accept a people without know him/her more. Maybe some of them before this are pursuit another girl or pursuit by another guy and had been rejected by them. Then just only in one week, the girl or guy who had been rejected by anothers accepted another new guy or success pursuit another new girl.???? UNDERSTAND what's I mean?? Means, some of them maybe felt lonely after rejected by people then just stuffing another new people who are not really they love. But anyway, they still can be a NEW couple??? I really strange with this kind of people??? Is it people can't live without lover? I don't knw!! I think everyone hope to have a lover who can love them, listen to them, accompany them....but even that, it doesn't mean we can just only accept a poeple by kidding,because as I think we have to make sure that's guy is the right person for us?? Well~~To be honest, now I really hope to get a boyfriend to listen to me, love me and........but however isn't it we still have to be patience and slowly waiting for "him"(who is the right person for ur).....but not casually pick one of the people who nearly over you....Why??? Some of them can treat Love as a child's play?? Some of them can be a couple with a people they not really love?? Feel strange with this love view.....

Exaggerated

This morning came back to hometown by bus. It was so exaggerated, because there were just only one customer in the bus. Yes..the customer was me. But however, the bus still have to departure to K.Trg. This experience let me remember about the knowledge that I get in the class. Some of the product or service can't keep for a long time, because at a time later it's still have to proceed.......even the marketer or an organization maybe is going to loss.....Oooo~~~ I got that....

SEARCHING & WAITING

Searching for this movie for along time. Well~ because of KB and KT have no cinema, so I've not yet watch this cute movie. Waiting~Waiting~ and Waiting...but the website of download movie have not yet upload this Movie...Boring~~~

无助

我不知道该说什么，做什么了！我真的好累好累！让我喘口气好吗？我~我~我该怎么办~~~好无助~~~~我的未来在哪里？为什么我看不见。我该放弃吗？放弃我的想法，放弃我这几年的努力吗？为什么？为什么？为什么就没有人帮帮我，给我一线光明，好让我对未来还有一些期望！

NEW SEMESTER !!

Now I'm sitting at McD which near the bus station and playing my facebook and blogging. Because later I will be going back to K.B by bus on 12p.m. Well~ Tomorrow is another new semester for me, it's also is my last semester in Polytechnic. Actually I'm feel so happy now because finally I'm in the last semester but beside that I'm still feel a little bit sad about it. Even how I'm leave in K.B and study with all my malay classmate almost 2 and half year already. However I'm still will miss all the thing that I'm did in K.B and Polytechnic. But any how, hope tomorrow is my another lucky day.

Hi my sweetheart !!

Recent crazy obsession with this Taiwan Hot drama. Haiz...There are 2 more episod on the big end. Hopefully this drama is a Happy Ending story....This few day, I really can't wait for the next episod which going to broadcast on this Sunday..Because I'm in K.B on Saturday..so it's mean I have to go Cyber Cafe to download the next episod on this Monday. Really hope that my K.B house got internet, but the facts is..NO...Well...Cyber CAfe....Wasting money to Download??? What can I do..If there are no drama to let me watch in K.B..I think I'm going to be moldy..haha..

Xmas Tree

Stella with all Xmas tree in a few shopping mall, Pavilion, The Garden, Mid Valley and also Sunway...hehe...But the shopping mall decoration that I most like is Pavilion. It's so grand...I like it...haha..

AVATAR

Last few day, I had just went to watched AVATAR which a great movie that I unforgetable. The animation, the story, the scientists, the technology and the war between Na-vi and human. Before I'm going to buy the ticket of this movie, my cousin was told me that watch AVATAR in 3D is more amazing great than general one. So, I'm trying to watch it in 3D. Haha..I never regret that I'm watched it in 3D, because it's really amazing and the story is so touching and damn cool...This movie tell us how great is it a scientists been. I most like the environment of Pandora, it's kinda beautiful. AVATAR!! I hope to watch it in 3D one more time...haha...